confused

"ando por aí querendo te encontrar. em cada passo paro em casa olhar, deixo a tristeza e trago a esperança em seu lugar. que o nosso amor para sempre viva, minha dádiva. quero poder jurar que essa paixão jamais será palavras apenas, palavras pequenas, palavras."
(palavras - cassia eller)

i just feel confused. i wanted something, now i don't know anymore what i do want. i don't know if i feel atraction or love. i want to feel love, i want to feel beloved. well, i think i know what i want. i just pretend that i don't want it... maybe to donnot be hurt. all i want is freedom and love. all i want is to feel good and light.

now, my head is burning. my head is full of shits and i have no idea how to change it. i tried hard to feel better. i got it, but i didn't get it the way i wanted. i wanted everything hasn't happened. i wanted i didn't let my feeling explode as they did. i was honest, clear and weak.

as you can see, i'm completelly confused; trying to feel something good and i'm also trying to donnot do the same with someone that people made with me. i has changed because of this, i became afraid, closed...

if this feeling get out of my head and i finally decid what to do or what to feel... then i'll be happier. until there, i'll still be here, trying to be happy and also trying to donnot hurt no one. "/

"sem mais, eu fico onde eu estou, prefiro continuar distante"
(nando reis - resposta)